on identity

“The most common form of despair is not being who you are.”

— Søren Kierkegaard

[photo: from the "Leather Vixen" editorial. model: Karlie Kloss, photo by: Greg Kadel, for Numéro #137 fyi: this is my all time favorite editorial with Karlie, shot #9 is my absolute favorite of the spread, but it might cause a tantrum over here. full editorial here NSFW: http://vintageleatherind.wordpress.com/…/leather-vixen-kar…/]

on killing the past ...

“Do you believe,” she went on, “that the past dies?”

“Yes,” […] “Yes, if the present cuts its throat.”

— Leonora Carrington (The Seventh Horse and Other Tales)

[image found on PostSecret]

on standing

"I love the way she survived. Survival looked good on her. There were no dark marks under her eyes maybe on the inside, but I liked the way she looked through them and laughed at life.

She did it gracefully. She'd walk over glass and through fire, but still smiled. And honestly, I'm not interested in people who haven't lived and died a few times. Who haven't yet had their heart ripped out, or know what it feels like to lose everything. I trust those people, because they stand for something. I know what she'd been through. I wanted to thank her for surviving. And I wanted her to know she now had someone willing to stand with her too." - J Raymond

Julie Rode

Jordan Lehn, ph: nastacia ellis for 'Devil Pray' on zivity

sometimes

sometimes i get really run down because it feels like i'm always recovering from or surviving something ...

then i get hit with a week like last week and whilst making coffee in the sun drenched kitchen just now i found my.self feeling that all too familiar and surreal moment of «i can't believe i made it through another full frontal hit»

but i did and not only that, i also managed to adjust some behaviors, break patterns, surprise my.self. and as i was reading that tumblr entry i posted previously, i realized how now and again i value so little two things - recovery and survival - which considering my past history are not a given, but rather are always something i have to work really hard at and are two of my greatest achievements.

i just had a moment of clarity in another way i stress my.self. point made. lesson learned.

unknown known loves

"There are known loves; there are things we know we love. We also know there are known unknown loves; that is to say we know there are some things we do not know that we love. But there are also unknown unknown loves -- the ones we don't know we don't know that we love."