city of ruins

the most sobering thing you can watch today .. it's 2014 and we feel closer to the past than a future, we have two world wars on our back and unspeakable acts of atrocity ... past and present (i was born in Africa, my perspective isn't limited to Europe) ... as a species, we need to move past destruction and war mongering ... not all that is lost can be recovered ... not all that is rebuilt is the same ...

coming back to life

assembling yourself again after a suicide attempt.

making the difficult choice to come back to life. (this.you.have.no.idea.this!)

reclaiming your life.

talk[ing].about.it.

<3

please take the time to see this TED talk: JD Schramm: Break the silence for suicide attempt survivors

The Bridge

this ... if you make the time for something today ... make the time for this ... make the time to listen to the people in your life who need to be heard!

«don't tell the person you know how they feel» ... ... if you haven't faced certain battles nothing does more damage than saying 'i know' when the other person knows you do not know.

as a suicide survivor, i can tell you i heard all the wrong things and very few right things when people dished out advice ... it was the moments when i was actually heard that slowly helped me turn the tide ...

please make the time to see this TED talk: Kevin Briggs: The bridge between suicide and life

Alphaville

«Ta voix, tes yeux, tes mains, tes lèvres,

Nos silences, nos paroles,

La lumière qui s’en va, la lumière qui revient,

Un seul sourire pour nous deux,

Par besoin de savoir, j’ai vu la nuit créer le jour sans que nous changions d’apparence,

Ô bien-aimé de tous et bien-aimé d’un seul,

En silence ta bouche a promis d’être heureuse,

De loin en loin, ni la haine,

De proche en proche, ni l’amour,

Par la caresse nous sortons de notre enfance,

Je vois de mieux en mieux la forme humaine,

Comme un dialogue amoureux, le cœur ne fait qu’une seule bouche

Toutes les choses au hasard, tous les mots dits sans y penser,

Les sentiments à la dérive, les hommes tournent dans la ville,

Le regard, la parole et le fait que je t’aime,

Tout est en mouvement, il suffit d’avancer pour vivre,

D’aller droit devant soi vers tout ce que l’on aime,

J’allais vers toi, j’allais sans fin vers la lumière,

Si tu souris, c’est pour mieux m’envahir,

Les rayons de tes bras entrouvraient le brouillard.»

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«Your voice, your eyes...

...your hands, your lips...

Our silences, our words...

Light that goes...

...light that returns

A single smile between us both

In quest of knowledge...

...I watched night create day...

...while we seemed unchanged

O beloved of all, beloved of one alone...

...your mouth silently promised to be happy

Away, away, says hate; never, never, says love

A caress leads us from our childhood

Increasingly I see the human form...

...as a lover's dialogue

The heart has but one mouth

Everything ordered by chance

All words without aforethought

Sentiments adrift

Men roam the city

A glance, a word

Because I love you

Everything moves

To live, only advance!

Aim straight for those you love

I went towards you, endlessly towards the light

If you smile, it is to enfold me all the better

The rays of your arms pierce the mist»

['Alphaville' (1965) / dir. Godard. i still think this is the movie where Anna Karina is just breathtaking to look at. everything about her is flawless!]

être en progrès sans regrets

Ce soir je ne donne pas mon âme au diable
Ce soir viendra un marchand de sable
Je sais que je suis en progrès
Je suis sans… regrets
Je resterai toute seule dans ma chambre
A attendre qu'on veuille bien me prendre
Je sais que je n'en reviendrai
On ne sait… jamais

definitions

"Definitions belong to the definers, not the defined.” Toni Morrison (Beloved) 

[all copyright: model: Nicole Vaunt / by Chris Clark / Austin TX]

Drive

i have to drive
i have my reasons, dear!


it's amanda's birthday ... always celebrate the people who helped you get to a better place! <3